“Have you ever thought of trying this colour? I think it would look good on you” “Why would you think that thing would look good on you? It sucks.” Or “What do you do, do you plan to explore further?” “What do you do, don't you think there are plenty of other things that could have been accomplished this whole time?” It's quite easy to recognise that there's a huge difference in both of these sentences in each example, right? Well. The mind that can differentiate and understand the tone, and the meaning of the sentence just by reading, often fails to understand while hearing the same thing from someone.(fails in the sense - of always being unable to understand the true intention of a particular person.) yes, I have the same kind of mind and I believe many of us do. Yeah, I mean sometimes, I just cannot discern the intention of the person, which causes me to doubt myself (self-doubt) and constantly overthink. It creates a very large kind of chaos in my mind, which I know is...
February 2020. The time when only China was affected badly with covid-19 and we were only spreading rumors about it. Only two weeks were left for my HSC Board exams. Frankly speaking, I didn't even like to study before the few days of exams. Holidays were started too. I started to feel bored in the house, so me and my friend Fiza decided to go to Rankala (our favorite spot). We used to go whenever we wanted, but we couldn't go anywhere for the past 2-3 months because of preliums, orals, and submissions. That day, Fiza had some work to do so she was already outside. So I needed to go by myself on my moped. I really don't like to ride alone. but we were meeting after so long so I had to go. I went outside.
The distance from my home to Rankala Lake is about 4 kilometers. It takes a maximum of 15 minutes to reach. The day before that day, papa bought me sports shoes which I loved so much. I went around 4 pm wearing those. I reached the main road. it was late afternoon so the road was empty as usual. there was only an old lady at the bus stop. her hair was completely gray and she was wearing glasses. she had a little, but a fully stuffed bag with her. as I came across her she showed her hand and started calling. I thought she had someone to call so I ignored her but suddenly I realized that there wasn't anyone around. I stopped my moped and looked at her. She was really calling me. I went back to her and before I start saying something, she started," Wow your shoes look so nice on you...where did you get it from?" she was saying and then she showed me her shoes," See I bought these recently but I wanted them like yours..." I felt so cute looking at her as she was wearing Kesari (dark orange) saree with sports shoes. She was looking so adorable!" I don't have any idea. My papa bought these for me. your shoes are looking so good on you..." she said," So sorry beta I stopped you. If you have some time can you please drop me at crusher chowk bus stop?" I replied immediately," Sure aaji! I am also going to the same side. I'll drop you." I was happy inside because I didn't have to go alone anymore!
In that 10 minutes journey, we were chatting with each other. from where we live, to the problems such as buses not arriving on time, lack of auto rikshaws and causing problems because of that and many more! Lastly, her destination had come. We were feeling so refreshing as we had such a frank chatting and good time together. " Thank you so much beta for dropping me..." she smiled. I bent to touch her feet and these words came towards my ears, "You are going to pass this examination with great grades...Be Successful! Swami Samarth Tujhe Kalyan Karo!! (Swami Samarth should fall all blessings and bring you a lot of happiness)" I had such a long and literal Aashirvad (blessing) for the first time that day. (I am an atheist from childhood. I don't have neither doubt about God's existence nor do I believe in God. In short, I have a simple statement: If God doesn't exist then there's no question about belief and disbelief and if he exists, I don't wanna annoy him. So I never had any disrespect for the people who truly believe in God. But I do not believe in God that's for sure.) Grandma gave me a blessing with her whole heart and then said goodbye and went ahead. Those words of hers were floating in my head. As if she had showered me with massive positivity with her blessing! I suddenly started feeling like my long-awaited desire has fulfilled. I felt like someone has freed me from a large weightage on my head. I started feeling so positive that if someone gives any work to me, I would do it in seconds! It was happening because of the blessing that Aaji gave me from the bottom of her heart. That day a thought came to my mind. The people who truly believe, admire God (without following any superstitions) have this selfless feeling built unknowingly among themselves. If we say it in a Theist's words, we can say: When the people faithfully believe in God, the form of god must have built-in themselves. Every human being should live with selflessness and a giver tendency so each one of us can live happily. I think that's the reason behind having faith in God!
