“Have you ever thought of trying this colour? I think it would look good on you” “Why would you think that thing would look good on you? It sucks.” Or “What do you do, do you plan to explore further?” “What do you do, don't you think there are plenty of other things that could have been accomplished this whole time?” It's quite easy to recognise that there's a huge difference in both of these sentences in each example, right? Well. The mind that can differentiate and understand the tone, and the meaning of the sentence just by reading, often fails to understand while hearing the same thing from someone.(fails in the sense - of always being unable to understand the true intention of a particular person.) yes, I have the same kind of mind and I believe many of us do. Yeah, I mean sometimes, I just cannot discern the intention of the person, which causes me to doubt myself (self-doubt) and constantly overthink. It creates a very large kind of chaos in my mind, which I know is...
Everyone had a special place in their hearts for school vacations. Some used to go to native places, and some had their guests visiting home and some always wanted to join camps and courses. For me, vacations( holidays) were fully dedicated to animals! Since childhood, I have loved taking care of animals so much. The vacation programs that were discontinued because of the re-opening of schools, and Diwali vacations had always been a new starting point! I used to Wake up early morning, go to the terrace put some rice and water for the birds, and then listen to their chaos the whole day! In my childhood, there were no houses around, so I had nobody to play with except my Dada. Having no friends to play with, was the reason I've always stayed close to the doggies. Also, my family had a massive congeniality for the plants as well as animals.
When I was in 3rd standard, we brought a puppy home ( named it Tommy). We never caged him. Whenever we had to go somewhere, he used to come even before leaving and protected our house until we came back! When we were back, he used to go. Then whenever he used to get hurt, he visited us as if we were the doctors. Tommy became our family member from then
Just like that, Diwali vacations started. At that time the construction of our neighboring house was in process. As usual, there was a heap of sand and dogs were playing there. Among them was a bitch. She had recently given birth to puppies. Her colour was slightly black on the back and yellowish on the rest of the body. She looked very different and attractive from others. When she came to our place she had given birth to five cute puppies. She never used to come in contact with others, but because of her hunger, she had to. " She has her puppies with her, so she might bite" everyone was saying therefore I was scared to feed her, so I used to take Aai with me. But she was so loving. She would let me pet her puppies but never herself. When I gave her something to eat, she let her puppies eat it first before herself. After some days, people adopted her puppies one by one. Now only Rani and one puppy were left.
One morning around 09.00 AM, Rani was barking in front of our house. I thought someone hit her or something so I went outside to look after her carefully. Then I realized that her puppy was not with her. When I went outside she began to run towards the heap of sand. I went behind her and came to know why she was barking. Her puppy's neck was stuck into a pot of plastic. The puppy was whining in pain. The pot was so tight that the puppy could barely breathe. As I tried to help him, Rani was coming my way as she was scared. It was nearly impossible to do this by myself, so I rushed home and called Mamma immediately. I had to hold Rani as I had no choice, she also stayed quiet. By that time mamma freed the pup from the pot. Rani happily rushed to the pup and started licking him. That day I petted Rani for the first time and she also let me pet her. After that day she visited me every day with her puppy to meet me. The day she didn't come to me, I felt like something was missing. This routine wasn't over even when the schools had started.
Just one day Rani came home in the evening and as usual, I gave her food to eat but she wasn't eating it, so I thought she must have eaten from outside so I took this casual. It was getting dark then too she was not ready to go, so I thought she was gonna stay with me today, I was delighted although she had to look after her puppy, she was not getting up. She was lying in front of our corridor near the staircase. My grandparents informed me not to go close to her and I was a bit confused about why. Like that, I went to study for a while and after studying I wanted to look for her whether she was there or not. She was lying at the same place, her eyes were partially closed. She wasn't breathing...and she left us
My eyes were filled and I was sad. My family concerned me. People were making assumptions that it's not good if an animal died in front of your house (superstition) and you should not fondle them. As these words were falling on my ears, I felt more terrible listening to them. That time my grandpa conveyed that Rani knew it was her last day of living and concluded that this was just an act of motherhood nature that she had to die today..Rani stayed with me till her last breath! And I miss her. From that day onwards my love for dogs has become unconditional!
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